I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell
2002-02-27 - 3:30 a.m.
Let's see if I can get this entry up and running. I'm trying out a new bit of HTML.
I've almost finished marking the test. I have seven left out of 38. I'll finish it tonight or tomorrow. The class is doing OK, Most of them passed at least. After they get to correct it I think the class average will be in the mid 70s, maybe higher. We'll see.
I got good news today; my father might be getting out of the hospital as soon as tomorrow. He is going into a rehab center in Great Neck and he'll go as soon as they can get clearance from his insurance company. It is supposed to be much nicer than Parker the place he went last time, very luxurious. He has his appetite fully back for the first time since this all started. I went down to get him some ice cream and he finished it right off, he hasn't done that in months. He now weights 127 lbs, lets see if he can get his weight up to 150. Maybe I'll end up weighing less than him!
I spent all day preparing this entry. I needed to upload some files to make it work. The files weren't uploading and I thought I had modem problems. I kept trying to reinstall my modem and finally thought I got it right. The files still wouldn't load. I just found out why. They were too big. I had forgotten to resize them. So now despite the fact that I should be asleep I'm finishing this entry.
They say a picture is worth ten thousand words, that would make this a very long entry. This is my photo album. I rummaged through my parents albums and a few of my own and found these. I'm might do a part two of this when I find some photos of ages that I haven't covered. Most of these seem to be from my teen years.
That's all the pics for now. While looking at them I realized how wrong my self image was most of the time. I always thought of myself as fat except for when I was sick when I was 12 and 13. Looking at the pics the only ones that I seem noticeably overweight on are at Aubrey's wedding and playing shuffleboard. The thing that finally got me to lose the weight was that my blood pressure was up to 160 over 90 and my resting pulse rate was almost 90, neither of those numbers are good. I didn't use a fad diet and I didn't get sick. I was just disciplined for about a year and went from 240 lbs to about 160 lbs. I haven't mentioned my weight for a bit here. I'm 165 lbs now. I have been either talking about weight with people or reading about it on their diaries. So many people feel they are overweight. My only advice is don't lose weight because of what other people will think of you, no one seemed to think of me any differently no matter what I weighed. Lose weight because it's healthier to. Extra weight is nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed by. I've changed my weight quite a bit over the years and only once was it of my own planning. It has to do with my body and not my mind.
I signed the Pro-Truth Pledge:
please hold me accountable.
Memories: Not that Horrid Song - May 29, 2018
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