I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell
September 07, 2016 - 4:00 p.m.
I got up late today so I decided to write after I ate. After I ate I started watching the Met game and forgot about writing. Then I came upstairs and remembered I had to write. I got on my computer, got distracted by Facebook and forgot I had to write. It is really hard not having a brain. Good thing I can get by on my looks.
Yesterday was the last day of my musical dry spell. I did basic chores in the City. The first stop was my PO Box. I checked the where the bus was on my phone but almost forgot my hat. I went back to get it. That cost me about a minute. You might think it's not a big deal but I cut things close. I made the bus by only 46 seconds. That did make for a fast commute. I waited only two minutes for the and had no wait for the so I made it to 57th and 7th Ave in an hour and five minutes. When I say it takes an hour and a half to get any place in the City that's with average waiting times.
After picking up my mail I wanted to go to my school to charge my phone. But it was the day before School opened and it closed at 5 PM. So I decided to have dinner at Whole Foods as my plans to eat there the day before were thwarted by the Union Square show not having as good a selection as Columbus Circle. Yesterday it was great, Tandoori chicken, roasted small potatoes with dill, and half an ear of grilled corn. I know corn can trigger a Crohn's attack but it's been so quiescent I decided to risk it now and then with small portions. I have it so rare that it tastes like heaven when I do. I'm tasting it right now; l love when I can conjure up a taste.
Then I went to the Chelsea Trader Joe's. it's harder to get home from than the one in Union Square but it's easier to navigate in the store and unlike the Union Square store it had everything I needed. Jo's remaining cat takes after me. It turns its nose at veggies and loves Trader Joe's. I got it the tuna for cats. You know that humans were bred by cats for their ability to open cans.
That was my exciting day in the City. Aren't you all jealous? When I got home jumped on a bandwagon, I watched my first episode of Stranger Things. What is this I watch Game of Thrones John Oliver, and Stranger Things; I've gone mainstream. I haven't changed, main stream has come to me. I have always liked what I like whether I'm marching in step or to a different drummer. The different drummer is far more common.
A day doesn't go by that I don't see someone with no expertise making definitive statements about thing with either no or terrible evidence. It's the Dunning-Kruger people who are so incompetent that they don't know that they are incompetent. A famous example is Jenny McCarthy on vaccination. What's her training? "The University of Google." It's easy to mock something for not knowing that you can't believe everything you read on the internet. It's harder to follow it yourself when what you reading confirms your bias. I have some simple rules, no matter how much I want something to be true I need verification from one very reliable source or even better verification from multiple independent sources. As an example I recently read a bunch of posts on Facebooks saying how when Trump went to the black church in Detroit that the place was empty. I hate Trump, that's exactly what I want to be true, but all the posts could be traced back to one article from a website with an agenda. Now it might very well be true but it might be false. I'm not going to repeat it.
Wow I fell asleep after that sentence. I'm seeing the psychiatrist on Friday and tell her what's going on. She night have me switch meds. One fun symptom I haven't mentioned is all of a sudden feeling like I'm falling when trying to get to sleep in bed. Any of you ever have that one? It only happened twice, both on the same night. It was after the day I had the weird side effects in the morning. If that continued I'd have called the doctor but I think I can wait till Friday. But I will take the falling asleep as I'm writing as a sign that I should stop writing. Wow it's almost four and I'm doing merch for Sharon Goldman tonight at Rockwood Music Hall. I'm doing the merch so I should be there before doors open at 6:30. So I should leave in an hour. I should take a real nap now before I go.
I signed the Pro-Truth Pledge:
please hold me accountable.
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