I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell
April 28, 2018 - 5:28 p.m.
Weird day; I slept very late and I'm just getting around to blogging after 4 PM. Where's Sandy Denny? Who knows where the time goes? I've been in a weird mental state all week. A large part of my mental activity is monitoring my mental state. Another is monitoring my body. Part of the reason I slept late was I spent much of the night in the bathroom. I did that because I ate a box of chocolate Oreos. I did that because my therapist approved my use of therapy food; she suggested a box of doughnuts. The mind body connection is not always mysterious. Do I score a win for making my therapist laugh out loud? I told her the story of being stuck in my belt. I wanted her to tell me that Jane was cruel for hysterically laughing, instead she did the same thing. It's so hard being me.
I did make myself a good dinner. I tried something new with my pan grilled chicken sandwich, a different mix of spices, pepper jack cheese, and honey mustard. I realized that the cheese can tell you when the chicken is done. If the heat has spread through the breast enough to melt the cheese, then it's cooked.
A miracle just happened. I found out how to return the belt, filled out the form, printed out the mailing label, and prepared it for mailing. The downside is now it's so late that I don't have time to write more. I'm going to Pete's Candy Store to see Stephanie Jenkins and I have to stop on the way to buy eggs and eat dinner.
I signed the Pro-Truth Pledge:
please hold me accountable.
Memories: Not that Horrid Song - May 29, 2018
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