I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe

The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken

Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
-Bertrand Russell

What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell

May 19, 2014 - 10:15 a.m.

Making the Grade

I have tons to do so I will start writing before 9:00, It's 8:48. Sundays are becoming my official bad mental health day. Despite dealing with that I managed to finish grading the Finite Math final and made significant progress in Precalculus. There was one section of the Finite Math that was pure hell to grade. They were so lost and so disorganized. Forgetting knowing the math, they can't even physically write coherently. They will skip a line in the middle of an equation. Why would somebody do that? It's worse on the test as they are using lined paper.

The worst part though was not the grading but my angst. I reached a point that every time I picked up a paper I had a wave of intense loneliness. it would fade as I graded the questions. Then come back as soon as I picked up the next one.

It was one of the few nights where my issues made it so I couldn't sleep. I got up and watched an episode of Red Dwarf. It was "Camille" the one with the pleasure Gelf (Genetically Engineered Life Form) that appeared as each characters deepest desire. Kryton, Rimmer, and Dave all fell in love with it. Kryton stayed in love even after it was revealed to be a green blob. Of course it didn't work out. It's husband showed up and Kryton made sure it went of with it.. They are actually sexless. It's the old story, Mechanoid gets Mechanoid. Mechanoid turns into blob. Mechanoid loses Mechanoid. Mechanoid gets Blob. Mechanoid loses Blob . You've seen it a million times. It's the story of my life.

It's Monday so I should tell you how the Nashional Batnoses, my fantasy baseball team is doing. I know you are all fans. Here are the standings.


We have been firmly ensconced in second most of the seasons. Once again we were winning the week till we had a disastrous Sunday. It didn't hurt the overall standings, it actually improved it as everything went wrong but we had 3 steals which pulled us out of last in that category.

Now I know nobody else cares about this but it has a big effect on my mood. No matter how bad I'm feeling it can distract me.

When I'm feeling angst I lose all patience with mediocre music. I have to hear the good stuff. WQXR is doing a fundraiser which is annoying but leads to them playing the hits and the classical hits are great. They played two of the pieces of music that are best at living my spirits, Beethoven's Ode to Joy from the glorious Ninth and Mozart's Pa Pa Pa Pa from Die Zauberflte. It's pretty much impossible to not be happy listening to them. When I turned to my own music collection I listened to, Haas Kowert Tice - You Got This, Rebecca Loebe - Bees & Zombies and The Sea The Sea - Love We Are Love. I've seen Becca and The Sea the Sea at Gene & Isabel's house. But have any of My Gentle Readers see Haas Kowert Tice? I love them intensely but the only friends I've seen at their shows are other musicians.

I was going to get philosophical and discuss "The Commons" and I will have to get to that some day. But now I better get back to grading. Breakfast first of course. I'll keep it simple, bacon and eggs and a bagel.





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