I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
2002-08-27 - 11:42 a.m.
I should be leaving now to pick my mother up at the airport but her plane is more than an hour late.
I got a call from the chairman of my department last night. I�m not going to get my favorite schedule of two back-to-back classes on Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday morning. Wish me luck on getting two classes on those days and not too late. I told her I�d take anything. I love having my evenings and Fridays free but beggars can�t be choosers.
I�m seeing Deni Bonet tonight. Lisa can�t make it; I might end up going alone. Ruth said she might go. That would be nice.
When I�m feeling bad and say that nobody loves me and someone tells me she does I often say, �You don�t count.� I never meant that as in insult. I meant it as the ultimate compliment. What it means is �I know you love me and I can depend on you, I just have questions about everybody else.� Carey and especially Leah have picked this up.
I�m still wrong though. The people that care about me are the only ones that count. I�m never going to have everybody love me. I don�t even think I want everybody to love me. I am fortunate enough to have some people who do though and that�s what matters. I can�t worry about everybody else.
Have I written that before? If I have it bears repeating.
I�ve been having lots of fun talking to Stacey recently. I�m getting a vicarious thrill from her discovering that there is a whole world out there that she hasn�t experienced yet. The strangest part is that I�m a part of that world that she finds cool.
Kudos to all the people that were here last weekend and were able to work on Monday. I was totally beat. I could barely get out of bed. Imagine if we had had the orgy like I wanted to. Carey was a meanie and said she wouldn�t have an orgy if I were involved.
I signed the Pro-Truth Pledge:
please hold me accountable.
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