I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell
May 07, 2017 - 10:59 a.m.
Sunday morning and I'm still sick. There's gurgles coming from my intestine and that's a good sign. I had a possible triple header on my musical agenda today; now I'm hoping I might be up to doing the last one, Deni Bonet at Rockwood. I don't think the odds are good. Being sick sucks. Being sick because you ate too many raisins and knew the danger sucks even more. It will give me something to talk about with my therapist.
The main thing I did yesterday was sleep. I never even went down the steps. I was considering watching the Met game but it was pouring and I figure they wouldn't be playing. Was there a rain delay? Going down the stairs might have been too much anyway. I'd probably have fallen asleep on the couch. I did manage to watch Iron Fist on my computer. I find it hard to stop watching, I want to know how it ends. There are other things I enjoy watching more but I don't have the option to binge watch them.
That's it for today. I was going to write about people's reaction to the AHCA but I'm too tired to do it properly. This is a simple, I'm alive post. Notice that I didn't talk about food? I have not eaten since Friday night. I make sure to drink water. When I'm really better I'll be ravenous and whatever I eat will taste great. My therapist says that I'm good at finding something positive amidst my troubles. I'll give credit to Eric Idle and Neil Innes, "Always look at the bright side of life." I'm also good at falling asleep as I write so I better get this posted.
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