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With or without religion, you would have good people doing good things and evil people doing evil things. But for good people to do evil things, that takes religion.
-Steven Weinberg

The good life, as I conceive it, is a happy life. I do not mean that if you are good you will be happy - I mean that if you are happy you will be good.
-Bertrand Russell

Too much sanity may be madness and the maddest of all, to see life as it is and not as it should be.
-Miguel de Cervantes

I enjoy paying taxes. With them I buy civilization.
-Oliver Wendell Holmes

November 10, 2005 - 1:51 a.m.

After Five Years Have I Gotten Wiser or Madder?

I know the date of this entry will be 11/10 but I started it on 11/9. So in my mind this is only one day late.

My first entry was on 11/9/00, I have just passed my five-year anniversary. My first thought was to link to some of my favorite entries that came to me off the top of my head. Then I decided to start reading all the entries from the beginning and linking to what I thought were the best times, the worst times, and my philosophical moments.

Now as it ends up I think I’m going to give just a few links and more thoughts.

I wasn’t going to list any philosophical entries but I just came across this one and I think I’ll list it; Romance and Reason. I like the person that wrote that.

I’m not going to list all my bad times but there are three events that dominate, my illness, my father’s death, and my mother’s illness. My mother’s illness is recent and doesn’t have a clear-cut start. Just start reading from August to the present to see its evolution.

My illness has the best narrative. It starts here. If you start reading there and continue for a month it is like a mystery. There are false theories then the truth is discovered. The first climax is when I went to the hospital. The writing improves for a month then. That’s because Carey updated for me while I was there. Then as in a well written drama there is the false resolution followed by a twist when I found out I had cancer. You can pretty much keep reading from there till my last surgery at the end of July.

The saga of my father’s death and my reactions to it starts here. It pretty much continues till SMAF. Make sure to read My eulogy for my father.

Now for the good times. I’m not going to link to them, there are too many. You can find them by doing searches if you like. The other day I talked about what happiness really is. I’ll expound on that theme. No this is not the song Happiness is.

Happiness is:

  • Driving to Allentown via Baltimore
  • The look on Leah’s face when I gave her a guitar
  • Batnose conventions
  • Anything having to do with Batnose
  • Renita swooning when I kissed her hand
  • Roy and I entertaining our opponents when we play bridge
  • Figuring out exactly what is in your partner’s hand when you play bridge
  • Saying “No Met has ever pitched a no-hitter” after the first opposing team hit every game
  • The Budgiedome
  • A warm puppy
  • Being the only paying patrons staying for all of SMAF
  • Seeing the Lewis and Clark slash exhibit
  • Dressing as Pete and Maura for Halloween
  • Dressing as Hedwig and Tommy Gnosis while seeing Pete and Maura on Halloween
  • Making a Flying Spaghetti Monster
  • Bowling with Emilie at the Port Authority
  • Hugs
  • Knowing that Richard Thompson and Hoopoe the Clown are the same person
  • Trainwreck With Clowns busking
  • Being someone's favorite
  • Singing songs with friends driving home from Clearwater
  • Getting through to my class
  • Making French toast bread pudding
  • Giving house concerts
  • Eating at Jian’s Chinese restaurants with amazing friends that appreciate that it is right by Thornhill Avenue.
  • Going to the Metropolitan Museum of Art with Leah
  • Playing “How old is Lisa?”
  • Food on a stick
  • Stalking DVN
  • Being part of the Sensitive New Age Guys chorus
There is so much more. Don’t feel bad if I left you out. You belong.

I will point out one happy entry, one of the best days of my life. What makes the entry good is that the happiness is spiced with sadness. If a weekend with dinosaurs, a planetarium, zydeco music, dancing, family, and your best friend can’t make you happy I feel sorry for you. So read about my cousin’s wedding. It might not be the best day in my whole entire life but then again it might be. Oh yeah, after you read that read this guest entry written at the same time.




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