I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe

The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken

Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
-Bertrand Russell

What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell

May 19, 2016 - 12:11 a.m.

Diagnosis _______

I've been on Zoloft for a day but there's no joy in Mudville. I'm heading into the City the next few days mainly for scary stuff. I get to reward myself by hearing Rachel Ries and Jean Rohe tomorrow night. I'm looking for a place to crash in Brooklyn tomorrow or more likely today. I mean Thursday. It's just for the one night. I have a place but there are some difficulties with it.

I did yoga for the first time today. I'm not sure what I think of it. It was under far from optimum circumstances, there were no mats. We were in a conference room so we were in chairs or standing. I liked mediation more. I'm not the most flexible person.

I got my official diagnosis today, anxiety and depression. I didn't expect the depression; I'm a cheerful hobbit. Yeah I've been very unhappy of late but I have a very good reason to be unhappy of late. If I were happy then I'd be worried about my mental health.

It's late. I spent today doing things I need to prepare for tomorrow and talking on the phone with LORi and Dan. I needed that. Hey I'll be in the City and Brooklyn the next few days. If you want to get together for coffee or something let me know. I won't have a lot of time and I don't know when I'll have time but we can figure something out.





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