I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell
June 09, 2017 - 10:07 p.m.
You might have noticed that I'm MIA today. You might have guessed the reason, a Crohn's disease attack. I have spent most of the day in bed. I wasn't in bed doing things on the computer, I was in bed, sleeping. When I'm asleep I'm not in pain. I haven't eaten anything all day. I've kept hydrated with water and now some apple juice.
It was supposed to be a good day, psychiatrist, therapy then see Shawna Caspi in a house concert. Now I don't get to hear Shawna sing or hang out with her. She doesn't come to New York that often and I always look forward to when she does.
I brought this on myself, the great corn experiment was a failure. For years I avoided corn because it triggered attacks. It's not an allergy or anything chemical, the kernels simply obstruct my narrowed small intestine. My Crohn's had gotten so much better that I got cocky. Last year I ate corn with no problem. Those days are now over. At least the corn that made me sick was extra good. I will miss it; not as much as I miss Shawna.
I'm so sick I forgot I was writing this. I just took a turn for the worse. I'm going to post this and either go to bed or fall asleep watching TV.
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