I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell
March 01, 2015 - 2:14 p.m.
I'm writing this on borrowed time. My computer is on its last legs. I can see the battery draining. When it goes I don't know if it will ever recover. It is really quite sad. I think I'm buying a computer today even though I can't afford one. But I still feel the need to write.
OK so I actually did something yesterday. Not just something, I went to a party. Not just a party but a chocolate party! It's an annual event help by Skyler and his wife Shirley. I wasn't even sure if I would know anyone there and it's deep in the wilds of New Jersey but I love Sklyer and there's chocolate and I've had a lot of anxiety and chocolate is good for that.
To get there I had to take the subway to NJ Transit to New Brunswick. I called Sklyer when I was close and a friend of his picked me up. First failure, I forgot the friend's name.
It was held I a firehouse. Whoever heard of renting out a firehouse for a party? But I guess it's a thing. You can't do that in New York.
I got there and there was one person I knew, the one person I thought I would know there, Scott. Skyler is in Scott's band, Scott Wolfson and Other Heroes. You've heard me talk about them before. They are favorites of mine. Unfortunately the other members of the band couldn't make it. I'm going back next year. Maybe by then I'll have date.
Hey my computer is charging.
Well it was.
And now it is again. I'm going nuts along with the computer
I joined Scott and his roommate, Kate? Katie? I'm going with Kate. You know me with my Kath variations. I attract them like flies.
So what is a chocolate party. Skyler and Shirley are not only chocolate aficionados but also amateur bakers and confectioners. They make amazing desserts and invite their friends to do the same and bring them to the party. Before the main course, chocolate, dinner is served. I won't even talk about that. There was chocolate.
I was too busy eating to take pictures till most of it was gone but this is what it looked like
Yes this is food porn. My favorite were these chocolate peanut butter pretzel squares and the chocolate pudding whose name I forget. It wasn't he consistency of pudding. It was the consistency of heaven. I had a scoop of it and it held the spherical shape. It is the platonic ideal of chocolate. As a founder of the theobromic orthodox religion I considered it my holy duty to eat it. To drink there was Willy Wonka's chocolate river. You could call it hot chocolate if you were an infidel with no respect for the divine.
You thought I get excited over music? That's nothing compared to chocolate. It directly feeds the soul.
If everyone could eat and drink what I had last night there would be no war. The hate would drain from the most barbaric member of ISIS.
There were also Nerdy people Chocolate and nerd talk. Does it get any better than that? Oh there was music. I noticed Cab Calloway and Sonny Rollins. Can't beat that. In conversation we savaged the Eagles. In conversations I learned about the relationship of Sugar Sugar and the Monkees! How did I not know that? How did Carey never tell me? Clearly she does not love me.
Getting home was a challenge. NJ Transit I expensive and a pain. Skyler said he could get me a ride back to New York. He found one, Ben lives not far from me. Even if He didn't drive me all the way home he lives 12 minutes from me by subway. The problem was he helps clear up after the party that ended at 11. I was fine with that till I realized that Scott lives near the PATH in Jersey City and he was leaving a bit before 10:00. I figured that would get me home faster. It did. I didn't realize he lived right at the PATH station and I didn't have to wait for the train. I was on the subway at 11:15, probably earlier than I would have left the party if I had waited. And I was home before midnight. I chose right. And I got some good talk with Scott and Kate in on the ride back to Jersey City.
It was good just to get out of the house and do something fun. I have not been doing enough of that. I need to do things and see people. And I got to do a lot of reading on the trains. This was a win win win situation. Well if we forget my computer dying. OH and that Carey doesn't love me.
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