I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe

The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken

Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
-Bertrand Russell

What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell

October 16, 2014 - 12:15 p.m.

Capital Idea!

So everyone assures me that it's OK to be unhappy and to express that. But the question is, does it make for a good blog? That's what matters. I'll gladly be miserable if it leads to good writing.

Yes I realize that last sentence contradicts itself. That makes me happy .

So as I was in a "I don't want to move" mood yesterday know what I did? I didn't move. But I did use food therapy. For breakfast which I eat at lunch time, I had that threatened peanut butter and bacon omelet it is perhaps the greatest breakfast food ever invented. Then for dinner I went out to eat. I wanted to cook but was too lethargic to pull it off. So I made myself mood for dinner and went to the Vanderbilt where I had a kielbasa and cottage fries. I haven't done that in ages. I lucked out, it started to pour when I was in there but it stopped right as I left. So do you know where I go for dessert when I go to the Vanderbilt? I have written about it before. I went to Ample Hills creamery. There was a problem this time. All the flavors were foo foo except for vanilla. The only chocolate was Mexican Hot Chocolate which has chili and cinnamon in it. I love chili. I love cinnamon. I don't want them in my chocolate ice cream. So I had Sweet as Honey. It tastes like honey. I had it on a sundae served over a chocolate brownie and with hot fudge. So I had my chocolate fix. This is a very effective anti-depressant.

I actually considered self-medicating by getting a drink on Tuesday. I didn't. I'm afraid of drinking to feel better. That's too easy a trap for me to fall into.

When I got home I called Katrina who needed to talk to me. Being needed is right up there with chocolate. Our conversations no matter how serious become very amusing.

I watched Warehouse 13 the first season. It was not as good as I remembered it. It could always get annoying.

I forgot to mention my new toy, Amazon Prime Music! I can listen to all this great music for free with no ads I'm now listening to "Fire of Unknown Origin" by Blue Oyster Cult.

This is going to be an unfocused entry. That happens sometimes.

I see in my notes on what to blog I have the word "Capitalism." So I guess that's what' I'm supposed to write about. If this bores you, you have my permission to skip the next paragraph.

If I see the word "capitalism" in a sentence the odds are I'll disagree with it. The thing is that capitalism is the worst form of economy except for every other one. There's a reason that every major economy is now capitalist. China which was one of the most extreme socialist countries is now communist in name only. And know what? That benefitted the people They are doing a lot better. When I hear people rant against capitalism I cringe. There is a lot of room in the capitalist tent and the ranters don't get that Neither do what I call the capitalist Salafis. These are the people that call Obama a socialist. They are total fundamentalists and will not tolerate any straying from orthodoxy. Capitalism assumes perfectly functioning markets where everyone has equal knowledge and freedom. That's a useful theoretical assumption, It's like assuming no air resistance or friction I physics, but it's not the real world. The Salafis won't brook any discussion that markets aren't perfect. The real debate is not between capitalism and socialism but in how much nudging the government has to do to make markets function better. We used to be able to have rational debates about this. We still can but there's now powerful forces to promote the extremist viewpoint that there should be o nudging of the markets at all. When you want to rant against capitalism that's where you should direct your ire. It isn't something inherent in the system.

Where did that come from? Reading economists every day, duh. I question of people want to read about me being depressed but I know nobody wants to read about economics. But every once in a while I have to get it off my chest. The pressure builds when I can't write about something I think about often.

OK you made your way through that I'll leave you with something silly. My cousin Ed found a toy sperm, yes they make toy sperm with a smiley face on it, in her mailbox and wanted to know what that was about. I like my explanation.

When a mailbox and a femailbox fall in love the mailbox sends a sperm to the femailbox special delivery. When it's inside the femailbox it combines with the mailovum to form a zygotebox which divides and redivides until it becomes an fetalbox. When it emerges from the mommybox it is a babybox. That's where new mailboxes come from.
I am very proud that 22 "liked" that. I might not know how to function in the real world but I know how to get "liked" on Facebook.

Today's breakfast will be simple, a poached egg, Taylor Ham, and cheese product. Tonight I'll go out and listen to A Circle of Songs, Hosted by Richard Barone with Very Special Guests: Eric Andersen, "Captain" Kirk Douglas of The Roots, & Nellie McKay. It's at Subculture one of my favorite venues.





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