I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe
The trouble with fighting for human freedom is that one spends most of one's time defending scoundrels. For it is against scoundrels that oppressive laws are first aimed, and oppression must be stopped at the beginning if it is to be stopped at all.
- H. L. Mencken
Many people would sooner die than think; In fact, they do so
What I have been telling you, from alpha to omega, what is the one great thing the sigil taught me — that everything in life is miraculous. For the sigil taught me that it rests within the power of each of us to awaken at will from a dragging nightmare of life made up of unimportant tasks and tedious useless little habits, to see life as it really is, and to rejoice in its exquisite wonderfulness. If the sigil were proved to be the top of a tomato-can, it would not alter that big fact, nor my fixed faith. No Harrowby, the common names we call things by do not matter — except to show how very dull we are ...
-James Branch Cabell
April 18, 2016 - 9:08 p.m.
I have to go to sleep half an hour ago so I'll make this quick I actually had a short easy day at WFUV. I couldn't fall asleep till after 2 AM, 2:09 was the last time I looked at the time. I woke up at 7:50 AM. Let's say I got 5 hours and a half hours of sleep. I didn't get to the station till a little before 10:00. I feel like such a slacker. Then it was an easy day there. I don't think I took a call. I trained people and handled some problems that came up. That's the most important things I do as a supervisor. I had the fun of training a friend, Karen volunteered for the first time. I started with the most important thing, "if Jim gives you trouble hit him on the nose with a rolled up newspaper." She had to do that only twice. I was very good and remembered to bring my cane in for Brian. He's been using one for a while and it weighs a ton. Mine is so much lighter and I obviously don't need it.
I had a bad experience on the subway Sunday night. I got on the at Atlantic Terminal. The train was crowded but I got a seat. The woman next to me had a package and decided that half of it should be on my lap. I was tired and didn't want to argue so I just let it go. She got up a stop from my station and I did what every New Yorker does. I slid over to the end seat which is more comfortable and not next to anyone. The woman then moved that that the bag that had been half on my lap was inches from my face and swinging. I nudged it. She kept it there. I nudged it again. She yelled, "Stop hitting my bag you should have just stayed where you were!" I responded something along the lines of "I didn't say anything when you put it on my lap but keep it out of my face." She threatened violence. I told her she has problems and moved back where I was before even though it was less comfortable. It was still better than engaging with her. I ignored the stuff she kept saying. I think eventually she realized that she was the crazy lady on the subway in the minds of everyone else. That might be wishful thinking on my part. OK that is wishful thinking on my part. Looking around though I am pretty sure that was what people were thinking. All New Yorkers know the various incarnations of the crazy guy/lady on the subway. If you don't then you probably are the crazy guy/lady on the subway.
Tomorrow is the primary and I can't vote as I never registered as I never imagined I'd still be living here when it came time for the primary. Ugh. Of course I'll be happy with either Hillary or Bernie as president. I heard someone describe it as choosing the lesser of two evils, I think they are two excellent candidates. I have fears that Bernie is an ideologue who view reality through the lens of his social democratic world view which he insists on calling incorrectly socialism. It's not as he isn't for socializing the economy, making private companies government enterprises. I always said that even though he voted against the TARP that was only because he knew it would pass anyway and he wanted to improve it. Cruz on the other hand would say, "my ideology says that not interfering is best so I won't accept what the people who study this for a living say will happen; that the banks will fail, and people won't be able to get either cash or credit recreating 1929 but worse.
Even though I don't think the fate of the country hangs in the balance I wish I could vote. I want to be a good citizen. I have always been politically engaged it's important to me. If I didn't have the anxiety I would have registered and I would have voted. Wow I just realized I'm still registered, just in my old apartment. OK I'll vote. Whew. I'll have to leave FUV early though since I have to get up early again on Wednesday for the last day of the drive. Oh no I can't do that. My mail election mail to that apartment will bounce so I'm stricken from the rolls. Damn. I have to make sure I register for the general election. You should vote. No matter who you support. Let the politicians know they need to cater to your needs.
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